lmao the dating thing was just kind of like one of those things where Mika just WENT WITH IT. Why not! Plus it's fun to fluster Yuu. THAT SAID he's worried he's pushed it too far, especially re: sex where really he was just... enjoying talking dirty... for the most part. So. Lol.
AS FOR THE TWO YUUS he's happy to have them both!! He's a little distressed he hasn't been able to spend more time with vampire Yuu and that vamp Yuu does seem to be having a hard time and seems to need more attention than human Yuu tbh. But he wants to spend time with human Yuu a lot as well and get to know him and take care of this precious angel. So if anything his problem is HOW DO I HOLD ALL THESE YUUS atm. He really just wants them both to be with him always and protect them from everything.
He doesn't know they're master and servant yet. That's also something. He's really nonplussed at how their relationship with each other is working out so far, but it seems to be... working out... in a Yuu way.
Yuu considers vamp!Yuu to just be. baby him. WHICH CLEARLY IS CLOSEISH TO THE TRUTH so he's. very protective of him, too! Especially since he's Mika's Yuu and he really really wants Mika to be happy and for them both to go back together and do MIKA AND YUU THINGS since. even if Mika is really precious to him and so is Yuu, he also knows that they're going to eventually do what they want and go back to their own home! Which isn't his.
BASICALLY VAMP!YUU IS A BABY AND YUU'S GOING TO PROTECT AND CODDLE HIM AS MUCH AS HE CAN UNTIL HE GOES.
why did mika ever think yuu would know what dirty talking is. mika. pls.
LOOK MIKA DID NOT KNOW HOW FAR YUU HAD GOTTEN WITH PREVIOUS HIMS AT THAT POINT, FOR ONE. FOR TWO, HE GOT CARRIED AWAY.
But yes fair he's learned that lesson. A part of him is alarmed at how Yuu seem to be rushing into it so he's trying to stall as best he can so Yuu is actually ready too. And Mika, while he enjoys the sexy aspect, doesn't want their relationship completely taken over by it.
What would happen with Mikas and everything in Yuus ideal world/ending??
I THOUGHT YOU ASKED ABOUT VAMPIRE YUU AND I WAS ABOUT TO WRITE PAGES THERE WHOOPS
Um Mika is unsettled by the idea of another him that became a vampire because he knows he'd rather be DEAD. And he's aware of how isolated he must have been, how much it would have destroyed him. He's not sure he'd like vampire Mika either, because to him it sounds like the ULTIMATE personification of his failures and flaws...? Literally, all his terribleness exaggerated to a huge degree. The idea makes him uncomfortable, and he's uncomfortable with people imposing this image of the other Mika onto him, because while it's him it's also. Not. And he doesn't want to be a replacement Mika. Especially because vampire Mika is him, broken. And Mika can't afford to think about being broken like that. He can't afford to think about how it would probably hurt to see a human, stronger Mika versus a vampire, weaker Mika because it pains him in a lot of ways.
That said, he also sympathizes with vampire Mika and glad he found some measure of happiness with Yuu. He understands that Mika is probably like HIS Yuu, and didn't deserve what had happened to him and is probably incredibly angry with himself and needs a support system far more than HE does. And he is grateful that he gets to have a lot of happiness with human Yuu because of the progress vampire him made! Except he also feels guilty over it, feels like he's taking advantage. For a lot of reasons, but especially those said above. And he doesn't want to give it up.
He's not sure what would happen if vampire Mika showed up. He suspects he'll have difficulty living with him, let alone accepting him. And that scares Mika more than anything. He has a lot of conflicting feelings.And there's a lot of lying to himself going on here too, because he can't be entirely honest about his feelings about himself either.
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AS FOR THE TWO YUUS he's happy to have them both!! He's a little distressed he hasn't been able to spend more time with vampire Yuu and that vamp Yuu does seem to be having a hard time and seems to need more attention than human Yuu tbh. But he wants to spend time with human Yuu a lot as well and get to know him and take care of this precious angel. So if anything his problem is HOW DO I HOLD ALL THESE YUUS atm. He really just wants them both to be with him always and protect them from everything.
He doesn't know they're master and servant yet. That's also something. He's really nonplussed at how their relationship with each other is working out so far, but it seems to be... working out... in a Yuu way.
HOW DOES YUU FEEL ABOUT HIS OTHER YUU SELF
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BASICALLY VAMP!YUU IS A BABY AND YUU'S GOING TO PROTECT AND CODDLE HIM AS MUCH AS HE CAN UNTIL HE GOES.
why did mika ever think yuu would know what dirty talking is. mika. pls.
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But yes fair he's learned that lesson. A part of him is alarmed at how Yuu seem to be rushing into it so he's trying to stall as best he can so Yuu is actually ready too. And Mika, while he enjoys the sexy aspect, doesn't want their relationship completely taken over by it.
What would happen with Mikas and everything in Yuus ideal world/ending??
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HE HASN'T ACTUALLY REALLY THOUGHT ABOUT IT much passed the SAVE MIKA KILL ALL VAMPIRES thing.
how does au mika feel about vamp mika's existence.
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Um Mika is unsettled by the idea of another him that became a vampire because he knows he'd rather be DEAD. And he's aware of how isolated he must have been, how much it would have destroyed him. He's not sure he'd like vampire Mika either, because to him it sounds like the ULTIMATE personification of his failures and flaws...? Literally, all his terribleness exaggerated to a huge degree. The idea makes him uncomfortable, and he's uncomfortable with people imposing this image of the other Mika onto him, because while it's him it's also. Not. And he doesn't want to be a replacement Mika. Especially because vampire Mika is him, broken. And Mika can't afford to think about being broken like that. He can't afford to think about how it would probably hurt to see a human, stronger Mika versus a vampire, weaker Mika because it pains him in a lot of ways.
That said, he also sympathizes with vampire Mika and glad he found some measure of happiness with Yuu. He understands that Mika is probably like HIS Yuu, and didn't deserve what had happened to him and is probably incredibly angry with himself and needs a support system far more than HE does. And he is grateful that he gets to have a lot of happiness with human Yuu because of the progress vampire him made! Except he also feels guilty over it, feels like he's taking advantage. For a lot of reasons, but especially those said above. And he doesn't want to give it up.
He's not sure what would happen if vampire Mika showed up. He suspects he'll have difficulty living with him, let alone accepting him. And that scares Mika more than anything. He has a lot of conflicting feelings.And there's a lot of lying to himself going on here too, because he can't be entirely honest about his feelings about himself either.
SORRY HE'S NOT AS SHOUNEN AS YUU IS EVEN AS A AU
What WOULD Yuu do if he got a vampire Mika again